Monday, September 5, 2011

It Was the Best of Times, and It Was the Worst of Times

I haven't posted in a while due to life just being chaotic.  Adjustments are being made, and there have been good days, great days, and some days...well...not so good or great.  It has just been life with the good, the bad, and the ugly; however, it has been ours.  It is real.  No need to deal with fiction when reality is just better in so many different ways.  With that being said, I would rather have a bad day with the Flatlander than a perfect day with somebody else.  He centers me.

The good:  The kids, all of them.  A night with rain beating down, pumpkin candles, Russian tea, and the sounds of Billie Holiday. 

The Bad:  I really don't want to go into deeper details out of respect for all involved, but let's just say life can throw you a curve.  Just when you you have a chance to inhale, you watch something fall apart.  You may want to ask God "why me", but shouldn't it be "why not me".  Every person who is under the moon tonight has problems, and sometimes they just seem to overwhelm.  My minister reflected on this just last Sunday and made several valid points, and this is what I am holding to this week:

1.  Repent:  Luke 13:1-5
2.  Reform: 
3.  Remember:  Psalm 77:7-8
4.  Revive:  Hosea 6: 1-3
5.  Report:  Be prepared to report how your hardships glorify God, your first true love.  
 
Someday soon I plan to "Go Tell It on the Mountain".

The Ugly:  Recently, I did a two part posting over toxic relationships, and I did so due to somebody actually acting out toward me in a manner that made me extremely uncomfortable.  Basically, they wished that my new marriage, life, and relationships will crumble around me.  Karma was going to get me.  Why?  Because we aren't close anymore.  Even though I tried to ignore her, for the most part, I must say that her attitude did bother me just because I am that much of a thought on her mind.  That my happiness bothers her so much, she must wish harm for good.  Needless to say, even though I am not a Buddhist, I really don't think that is purpose of Karma.  We don't go through life doing good to repay others with bad.  I don't see why we want bad things to happen to others.  Here is my open statement to her, "I don't want anything bad to happen to you, your marriage, or your life.  I believe you have a good heart, and you deserve to exist without pain.  My life shouldn't be your focus, as your life shouldn't be mine.  Let's just exist without being in each other's way.  Believe it or not, you are not even a blip on my radar, anymore.  I will wake up tomorrow with a clear heart and mind and move forward.  I suggest you do the same."