Have you ever had "I don't feel good, and I want to pout day"? I think we all need one now and then, and today was my day. My husband and I argued before bed last night, and of course, as he snoozed, I analyzed every single word of a five minute waste of time. I have to admit my stupidity; I wasted a full night sleep agonizing over a five minute argument, which in the long run, won't matter. I feel lost when we fight. It brings out my insecurities. It brings out my irrational fears. It brings that cruel, nagging voice in my head. Today I needed to heal from it all, and I fortunately had the luxury to do so. Funny how I can argue with him, but I need to step back and repair myself from myself. I am the cliché...my own worse enemy.
So, how did I celebrate my self-proclaimed day of rest and laziness. First of all, I read and read and read. I picked up Elizabeth Berg's The Year of Pleasures, from 2005 and read it all in one, selfish rush. I almost wished I had saved it for the winter, because it would go perfectly with my favorite throw and a cup of hot chocolate. It is a small read, and there seems to be so much the protagonist isn't saying. It could have easily been expanded into a larger novel. I read one review on GoodReads that said it was like a Hallmark novel, and yes, I can see this as a Saturday afternoon Hallmark movie, or even a woman's television drama. It focuses on Betta and her grief following the death of her husband. She is completely lost when he dies, and leaves Boston for the mid-west to finish the dreams they shared together. My only complaint is that when it ends, it ends. I really wish it could have been longer and allowed me to see their lives as they continue on. Just when you fall in love with them, they are gone.
The best thing about this book is my belief that I was meant to read it. A friend of mine, just last Friday, asked if I had ever read Elizabeth Berg, and no, I hadn't. She was once an Opera pick, and Opera and I don't always agree on literature; but A.'s description told me I had to give her a try, especially one book she just finished. She talked about how the author captured the texture and the little beauties of being a woman. The tiny details brought the characters to life for her and allowed her to identify with them. I went to a used bookstore Saturday and bought the book...because of its cover. Yep, that clinched the deal for me. I just finished A Homemade Life last week, and the cover was too beautiful to forget. This cover has the same sense of peace and home. I didn't fully realize it was the same book my friend loved so well, until later that evening. I am so thankful to have found it, and it isn't going into my books to swap. I now plan to go deeper in and annotate the lines that meant the most. I will remember it for a long while.